It's been a while since I've felt like I had anything to blog about. That's mostly because I had somewhat, unknowingly disconnected myself from "The Source" by just plain busyness. But, although nothing has fallen off my plate, I have had a moment of personal reflection and revelation that I thought would be good to share.
Over the past year, I have come to notice destructive patterns and cycles within myself. Just when I would think that I was over something, I'd find myself dealing with the same thing...just in a different way. So, recently I felt like God had directed me to do something that, to some, would be totally easy. I guess there's no other way to explain it than to say what He required of me. I felt like God directed me to delete over 100 friends from my facebook profile. Stupid, huh? But, it was soooooo hard to do! I felt like by doing that, I would be saying that I was ashamed of my God because I couldn't stand up for Him in that venue while they were on there. I kept feeling so ashamed of myself for wanting to do that. But, I couldn't escape it. I knew that I had to. So....very reluctantly....I did. It was incredibly liberating. I can't explain the reasons why, but it was.
So, I came into work today and was thinking about it again. I started to go back down that path of thinking that I'd just been really ridiculous and felt guilty for it. Then God reminded me of a verse in Matthew 5:
29If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. 30And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell.
I immediately felt like I knew I had done the right thing! There is so much more to this than I can explain to the public world right now, but for now, I rest in knowing that God gave me the strength to do what I knew I had to in order to keep my heart pure. I feel like an overcomer today.
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